Still Friends

My strong-minded 5-year-old likes to have his way. He will stubbornly do what it takes to get it. He will even give others an ultimatum. A threat. Whatever it takes. After all, he is named after a King in the Bible!

Even God is not spared from my son’s “demands.” Recently, in our nightly prayers, Josiah has been giving God an ultimatum. “If you don’t make me sick, I will be Your friend. But, if you make me sick, I won’t be Your friend.”

I explained to my 5-year-old that we should love Jesus no matter what. Whether we get sick or not. Not giving Him conditions. And accept what God gives us.

He said the same prayer for about a week.

Then, one night his prayer was different. He began the same words: “God, if you don’t make me sick, I will be Your friend. But, even if I get sick, I will still be Your friend.” I took a moment and paused as I let his words sink in. I will still be Your friend. Why did his prayer catch me off guard? Didn’t I “teach” him that this was the correct way to pray?

Then I realized as he finished his prayer what made me pause. Because I “understand” what I was teaching my son, but I rarely live it or practice it. I won’t think the words. Or say it. Never pray it.

Even if I get sick, I will still be Your friend.

Isn’t that Faith? Faith like a child.

Didn’t Christ understand this Faith? “But Jesus said, ‘Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of heaven.’” Matthew 19:14

Can I trust God even when things are tough? Can I put Him in full control?

“Nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done.” (Luke 22:42)

Even if there is a trial, a sickness, a challenge – I can Trust Him. I will not deny Him. I will still be His friend. Because I know He is in control. He is teaching. Guiding. Growing me.

There are times in my life where I like to sit in the Throne that belongs to Christ Himself. Where I sit and am in control. Where I tell Him, I can handle this issue. I know what is best for my husband. My children. No, thank you. You are not my friend. I do not trust You.

If He allows something in my life, I must admit He is my friend. I put Him back in the Throne. Where He belongs. I tell Him you are my King. My Friend. I trust in You. Even if I should get sick. Even if I don’t “like” that I am sick.

My life, like many of yours, is full of challenges. Trials. Sicknesses. Hardships. “Shall we indeed accept good from God, and shall we not accept adversity?” (Job 2:10) Both are designed for a purpose. Some trials have brought me down on my knees into repentance. Some have renewed my focus on Him. Some have led me to growth in a virtue.  Some have opened my eyes to Truths.

There are certain areas in my life that I have Faith. Other areas I cannot trust Him. My prayer for us all is to examine these areas in our lives. Be it health, parenting, marriage, finances, studies, service. We must Trust in Him in every area. That whatever happens, we trust Him.

Even if I get sick, I will still be Your friend.

Let’s Chat: How have you grown your Trust in Christ?